But if you never try you’ll never know
Just what you’re worth
It’s been an extremely long while since i’ve updated here and well i’m a little sick of formatting wordpress’s posts so i’ll be flying back to blogger.com to test it out again.
Bye 🙂
I so badly do. I need the second chance that i worked hard for, that i deserved. I know i shouldn’t feel bad about it but it constantly bogs me down and i’m sick and tired of people judging me for my past mistakes and setbacks.
I’ll emerge stronger and i’d show the world that this’s not the end of me.
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And finally this, most relatable ever:
Goodnight, sleep tight. Will post soon.
Hey, world.
(The first part of this post’s been drafted for a super long time and i guess imma post it now..)
We’re about to enter senior high. It’s kinda scary, how time passes like this. How we all entered as a cohort and grew up together. I must say junior high was never easy for me, despite many people thinking so. Often misunderstood, it was never easy for me to break out of the vicious self fulfilling prophecy that I’d never really do well. But honestly, i only had myself to blame. Throughout so many years, i’ve always done either badly/mediocre and i’d always promise (so-called) myself and others that i’d really “put in effort the next time”, when in fact i didn’t.
So i guess the debt from the 4 years that i had wasted away was too much for me when it all came crashing down on me, 4 months before eoy ended. Which was quite a sad thing, really, given that i gave in my all this eoy and ended up with some shitty results. But i guess because of all these setbacks i’d emerge stronger and i’d know what not to do in future.
I just don’t wanna be a disappointment to my parents, my friends and myself anymore.
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So yup, this holiday’s been really great cuz i feel that (well, almost) every moment spent was meaningful in one way or another.. It’s been a reaaaaaaaaaaaaally long holiday and looking through my organiser, i’ve been rather busy hahahaha 🙂
November | RWS Interview, HCL ‘O’ Levels, SCO Concert Pfmance, YEP Comm Outing, Choir Chalet, World Orchid Conference @ MBS, Choir Practice, Family Day, Studying, Coaching, D’MVMT Auditions, Visiting Camps 🙂
December | More Coaching, Subj Combi Released, Shouyi & Szewing’s Farewell Dinner, Caroling practice, Fix camera, Studying, Marche w/ family, Visiting Camp, M’sia trip, Jiaying’s house, Caroling Prac, Dinz with 2G babes, GOT MY LONG AWAITED IPHONE, Fam gathering, Caroling @ Sentosa 🙂
It was really fun to the ultimatum hehe 🙂 Plus it was so near with a straight bus home for me so it was really really convenient! Games and all were cute lah hahaha 🙂
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Okay next up for photo spam is.. *drumroll*..
COACHINGGGGGGGGG (@ AKLTG)
Really thoroughly enjoyed myself at this camp 🙂 And it was also my last camp as an Assistant Coach!! -hyperventilates- Hahahah. Coached a recourse group of 13 people with Julian and it was really a great experience, plus this coaching team was really really tight knit 🙂 OH HOW I MISSED COACHINGGG :>
Okay so in the midst of coaching, i took a few hours off to DMVMT Auditions and messed it up entirely -sighs- But i guess it was an experience? 🙂 Plus i kinda really like hiphop now, maybe i’d go Danzpeople/Oschool someday hehehe!
Visited the first senior camp few days after that and went out with Isaac after that to Vivo boardwalk haha 🙂
And guess what!
MY PARENTS ALLOWED ME TO DO ANOTHER CAMP FOR THE SEASON! -JOYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY- Plus this camp’d be my OJT camp alrdy, so yep i took a group by myself 🙂 Only have one shot with me now, will update when i get the rest hehe!
Taking a group on my own was tough but extremely fulfilling and it really made me improve myself in many ways 🙂 And i passed OJT! Heheheheheh -grins- I guess one really memorable thing from camp would be the thing on Nathan (my participant). Before it, i had quite a few hiccups here and there in doing my best to communicate and help him. It was really vexing when he was upset and everything but on grad night he came to me w tear filled eyes and hugged me saying “thanks coach nicole, thanks so much…… i held both my parents’ hands for the first time..” It touched me to tears, literally. :’)
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Subj Combinations were released and i got my first choice (H1 Bio + H2 Geog, Econs, Maths) haha. Quite worried for H2 Maths cuz my maths is really quite cui 
But i’d put in effort like how i did it during this year’s EOYs 🙂 It’s never too late, ain’t it? 🙂
Mmmm next main event would be caroling practices @ NYJC haha 🙂 It’s really different i guess, much more relaxing and fun haha. And all the singers there are really great 🙂 Will post on caroling in the next few days 🙂
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Anyway my camera was spoilt for awhile so i had to send to repair -sadface- in which Shouyi and Szewing’s farewell dinner @ Parkway Fish & Co. followed 🙂 Saw Ruizheng in the kitchen and apparently he cooked bryan’s pasta dish HAHA! Group photos at the bottom 🙂 The Y5s did some really awesomely funny gift for Shouyi, hand painted shirt w abs and armpit hair HAHAHAHAAH.
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Went to M’sia with family for 3-4 days but i’ve got no picts cuz my DSLR was still servicing!! 😦 But it was quite fun nevertheless. Da gu was quite mean to my sis though 😡 Don’t know why sigh.
Shortly after we (winne, reena, me) had a gathering at Jiaying’s house to just slack, play wii and laze around haha! Reena and winne were like mad women playing the wii boxing 😀 It was quite nice hehehehe 🙂 BUT SUPAH FAR LAH LOL.
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Dinz with 2G babes @ Astons at T1!! It’d been a really long time since we’ve met up and it was really nice just meeting and catching up over dinner and sitting at the viewing gallery to talk ❤
Hehe 🙂 This is sucha long post omigosh. But okay i’m about to hyperventilate here cuz i’m mentioning that i got my long awaited new iphone ^____________________________^ Wooooooohooooo ❤ So pretty and awesome and everyth HAHAHAAHAH. Okay shall stop 😡
Had a christmas gathering w fam before cousins flew off to europe, LUCKY THEM! Haha. Edwin’s especially lucky cuz he got to go USA (inclusive of Disney World and Universal Studios with had the HARRY POTTER THEME PARK thing -jealous ttm!!!!!!-) then come M’sia w us and now he’s in Europe -__________________- LUCKYBOII95 PLEASE. Hahahaha.
Okay shall end this post. Hehe finally right. :B Next post’ll be on Caroling and days at Sentosa!! 🙂
Till next time folks! Merry belated christmas!! Hope y’all all had a memorable holiday season heheheeh 🙂
Gah HCL ‘O’s tomorrow. To be honest, i’m horrified terrified and absolutely nervous /:
Cuz i really don’t know what to expecttt.
NERVOUS BREAKDOWNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN #hyperventilates
Whatever it takes, i’m not going to screw this one up. HCL’s been one of my stronger and more stable subjects and i really thank god for my relatively better capacity and grasp for languages. Reaaaaaally really crossing fingers and i’d do my best to not let anyone, including myself, down.
And i guess i really have to live by my current favourite quote:
All the failures and everyth i’ve gotten this year didn’t kill me 😉 I’ve been through hardwork and setbacks and okay honestly, i didn’t study my guts out for HCL this time but i’ve been putting in constant effort throughout the year, especially cause i have HCL tuition.. Speaking of which, i’m really gonna miss HCL tuition on Sundays 😦 Shall go back and visit when i’m free haha since my sis’s still gonna be there 🙂
The heart is stronger than you think It's like it can go through anything And even when you think it can't it finds a way to still push on Sometimes you want to run away Ain't got the patience for the pain And if you don't believe it look into your heart the beat goes on I'm tellin' you that Things get better Through whatever If you fall, dust it off, don't let up Don't you know you can go be your own miracle You need to know If the mind keeps thinking you've had enough But the heart keeps telling you don't give up Who are we to be questioning, wondering what is what Don't give up Through it all, just stand up!
I’ll be alright. JIAYOU ALL, YEAR 4 DHS AND SEC 4S ALL AROUND SG 🙂 🙂 🙂
Bye, #muggermode!!! TILL NEXT TIMEEEEEEE.
Cupcakecupcakecupcakecupcakes!!
Hehe had a nice baking session on Sat hehe 🙂 Was gonna bake before Deon came to teach maths but he wanted to join in so yup! Met at simei to buy the supplies and HAHAHAHA his feet couldn’t touch the ground when we were sitting down waiting for the bus cuz it was too short.. Okay i shouldn’t suan la heh 8) Anyway it was kind of my first time baking some pretty cupcakes with icings and stuff hehe. But i gotta admit without my mom or deon it’d have been a complete mess HAHA, spilt cookies all over in the first place -whoops!- Went to this super awesome place for dinner @ raffles city!! It’s called potato depot haha quite special and yummy 😀
Hadn’t been on the com for the past two days 🙂 It’s kinda fulfilling though, having an off-com therapy. Hahaha 🙂 Wednesday was a total no-text-no-call (besides one from my mom and sis) day. Was kinda shocking hahah but i felt kind accomplised i guess? O: Oh and i saw Clara and RZ @ Parkway on that day too 🙂 Nice seeing them happy hehe. Went to run with choir for PT on friday, felt really good and satisfying to jog and exercise after a relatively long time teehee. Going back to choir made me smile and realise that i really do love that place, regardless of the reasons i wanted to leave. So i guess i’d just have to see how the D’MVMT auditions go. I may not get in anyway haha 🙂
Baby you light up my world like nobody else, The way that you flip your hair gets me overwhelmed.
Went to Bugis St w fam today, gotta go back there sometime to get some stuff i saw whilst walking!! Couldn’t have stopped to shop cuz grandparents were there and it was sooooo crowded anyway 😦 Hahaha. And well, kinda had an empty feeling inside cuz Bugis always reminded me of.. someone. Whom i didn’t wanna be reminded of. But whatever it is i guess not being close will be the best for both of us cuz nothing would have come outta it anyway. Okay nicole you can stop thinking about it now!!!!
Kay i’ve gotta go study HCL now. Really grateful for Lian Lao Shi though, he’s been giving loads of awesome articles and worksheets and stuff. I’ve gotta take this chance to prove myself to everyone, including myself. It’d be the last and only chance in this rotten year.
Toodles! Till next time 🙂
I’ll be there when you’re insecure, Let you know that you’re always lovely. Girl, 'cause you are the only thing that I got right now.
Totally addicted to this song (Next 2 You – Chris Brown ft. Justin Bieber) aft watching the dance duet by Nick DeMoura and his girlf 🙂
So yeap, i’m back to post.
Today’s been a reaaaaaaaally boring day but i watched Glee S3E2 and S3E3!! Totally made me cry and laugh and stuff, loving glee 🙂 Oh and gossipgirl too! Though i miss Chuck & Blair i must say that Prince Louis is like *_____* MAD SWEET.
Other than that.. i guess i did nothing much. Tumblr-ed/facebook-ed/youtube-ed my day away. :B
But i found some really pretty printable organisers!! Cuz my current one can’t fit the whole year, only up to mid Nov hehe. Gotta really start jotting down the series of events and happenings so i can keep track and plan accordingly :B And i’m super excited but nervous for RWS interview and DMVMT auditions 😦 Quite unconfident for the latter, actually. Gah okayyyyy.
And i’ve been looking through people’s blogs, twitters and facebooks. Really really envy (not in a bad way) those who have those cliques and groups where it really just feels like ohana 🙂 Like, yeah sure i’m close to some individuals and stuff but it’ll never be the same as like, having those constant groups you know you can depend on. I guess that’s what i really yearn for? :<
Take these words, Don’t let them go unheard, This is me reaching out, I hope you can hear it now - Glee :)
But whatever, as my title denotes, imma update about life in Oct!! Heh however, it’s been a long time and i’m reaaaaaally lazy to go update on life via words so since pictures say a thousand words, here it goes! Picspam hahaha 🙂
Epic’s Class Chalet 🙂
Hehe new ring i bought after EOY! 🙂
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Aunty Ivy’s Bday + MBS 🙂
Infinity pool, whoopwhoop! *_*
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Y4 Bowling 🙂 (2nd Last Day of JH)
Okay so i must really really comment on this haha. Took bus 30 with Deon and Anthony to Kembangan for piano lesson and the skies turned grey… Voila! Downpour! So we were stuck until Dr Foo came out and loaned us some umbrellas. He kept on going about how nice the design was and how pretty the corporate colours made it. Oh and that the umbrella was automatic. Hahahaha we were just totally withholding our laughter cuz he was nice enough to loan us these new umbrellas anyway 🙂 Felt so loyal and patriotic to the school whilst walking with it 8)
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Last Day of JH: 4 Epic
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Okay ahahah random photo w my bubbly wubbly sis after my cousin Phillane’s wedding dinner 🙂
Yep so that’s about it 🙂
Haven’t been having muchhhhhhhh of a life before the chalet, anyway! It was the EOYs and the EOY prep period so it was just mugging mugging and more mugging.
You’ve got that smile, That only heaven can make. I pray to God everyday, To keep you forever.
Mmm. I had better get outta the com soon. Will update when i can! Quite lazy to do long posts like these anyway hehe 🙂 On a side note, i’ve waited v v v long for my iPhone 4 White alrdy.. May i have it soon, it’s getting harder to plan stuff and talk to people with my current phone 😦 #crossfingers
Till next time, folks! xx
NERD-COLE ALERT! I'll be studying HCL and stuff so i'd prolly not post too much for now :) But okay, who knows, i may have a blogging spree too! Jiayou all for remaining Os and to all who're taking HCL Os w me! AFB (away from blog) till later! Bye folks :) P.S. Will post when i finish work teehee. #muggermodeon
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